Meh

I have never written or attempted to write a blog in my entire life. For the most part, this will be the ramblings of a lost child constantly searching (and constantly failing) for the truth.

Today, well this morning, I was laying in my bed. I was reading another blog and it got me thinking. And this is what I thought.

About a year ago I met a girl. We had feelings for each other and we followed those feelings. We dated for 6 months or so then things got complicated. Her parents weren't going to allow us to date and she couldn't handle a long distance relationship. We decided to end our romantic relationship in favor of a friendship. That was fine for 2 months, until she met another guy. I became less important, I got hurt and I decided it was best for us not to talk.

This all happened in the last 4 weeks. We haven't talked in two weeks. This whole time I have been searching for something to replace what she meant to me. And for these two weeks I have managed to do nothing but fail. I have distracted my self with friends, my guitar, Facebook, nearly everything I could. But it wasn't until tonight that I found what I was looking for. As I sat up, I looked to my write and on my dresser I saw my bible. It was under a pile of stuff: school registration forms, math tests all sorts of things. And what I realized, is that we do this much too often. We pile all sorts of distractions on top of what really matters.

For the most part the thing that distracts me the most are girls. When I lose one I find another. This has been going on for 2 years. And I know for those 2 years God has been whispering in my ear, "look on your dresser and you'll find what you are looking for." There is a Hebrew word or phrase that is used in the New Testament that means God's chosen ones. That word is, Am Segulah. Sometimes it's hard to remember that I am God's. I belong to no one else.

God fights for me. I know this because in the past year, God has torn all comfort from me 3 times and all three of those times I was forced to fall back on what I know is forever. Him. And every time I have fallen back into the routine. This is a call to my self to stop this routine, to stop searching for other sources of comfort when I know the Comforter is always there.

"Now all glory to God, who is able to keep you from falling away and will bring you with great joy into his glorious presence without a single fault. All glory to him who alone is God, our Savior through Jesus Christ our Lord. All glory, majesty, power, and authority are his before all time, and in the present, and beyond all time! Amen." -Jude 1:24-25